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Background Step Three OK, Alaska. My mother moved my brother and I north with no more than the old black trunk filled with flimsy Californian weeds that would shelter us less from the weather than from the shame that had … Continue reading

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The Process II

Step Two: Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. Can I tell you a true story? I had just come off a bender when my best friend suggested a day trip to Misquamicut … Continue reading

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The Process I

Step One: We admitted we were powerless over alcohol and that our lives had become unmanageable. So, powerlessness. At this hour of the morning, I feel compelled to flee my bed as the fears continue to become more and more … Continue reading

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Tad Danielewski told us that if we looked into the mirror too long, we’d meet the adversary. We were elite instruments disciplining ourselves to navigate currents of the emotional state. The paradox of that reality is we were to reach … Continue reading

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It’s Christmas Eve. My most memorable was in Alaska (Girdwood) when my mother finangled a fat, white-haired, good natured man to find 9 reindeer and a sleigh filled with a bunch of prettyly wrapped, probably empty boxes. I was in … Continue reading

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